I wish I could tell you that everything is fine and nothing hurts today. But that would be a lie. Read More
Good Morning, Loves!
On my Tumblr blog I began editing these Disney songs in a Spoonie way! People have responded pretty well to them so I wanted to share them on my own domain!
- I’ve got doctors and meds a-plenty
I’ve got canes and braces galore
You want mobility aids?
I’ve got twenty!
But who cares?
No big deal
I seem fine
I wanna be where the people are
I wanna be, wanna be them dancing’
Walking around on those – what do you call ‘em?
Oh – feet
And ready to know what the doctors know
Ask ’em my questions and get some answers
What’s this pain and why does it – what’s the word?
When’s it my turn?
Wouldn’t I love, love to explore that life out these walls?
Out of the beds
Wish I could be
Part of that world….
My version of “Part of Your World” Read More
I was lucky enough to find, by chance, a Fibromyalgia Support Group in my local city. I went to the last meeting this past Saturday and a member of the Canadian Pain Coalition, Lynn Cooper, was there to give a presentation on her experience with pain and what the role of the CPC is.
One thing that she said that struck me was that she identifies as a Person with Pain (PWP) as opposed to a patient. I’ve always been a proponent of person first language, stemming from my work with children with disabilities (autism, mainly), and have never thought of myself as anything other than Courtney. But now, I am not just referring to myself as a Person with Pain, but Pretty with Pain. Read More
Am I the only one who hates taking pain medication? Whether the pain relief comes in the form of a pill I take, a patch I wear, a cream I spread, or the various other methods that medication enters my body, sometimes it makes me feel like a failure. Like I should be tough enough to withstand this overwhelming distress, that most people would not believe is even possible. Read More
I’ve never been a person who particularly likes being told what to do. I guess this should have been an indicator that Guided Meditation wouldn’t really work for me.
Reading these words, written in this way, seems like something high school kids shout in a formed circle around two bloody-nosed kids who are roughing each other up to appear stronger, tougher, and more bad ass than the other. Looking back, those kids probably didn’t know what they were fighting for, or even about for that matter.
But I know what I am fighting every morning when I wake up. I know what I’m fighting against based on my symptoms and the many diagnoses in my overflowing medical binder. I have many reasons to keep going when I look in my husband’s eyes and my nephew’s brilliant smile. I never know what the day will bring or where this journey will take me, but the one thing I do know is that I’m a fighter.
And this life, with this body, and these diagnoses is how I know I’ve been called to fight. Read More
When I began writing about my Chronic Pain Problems I used the username On the Bright Side of Courtney because my goal was positivity. I wrote for a website called Positivity in Pain and I smiled and laughed my way through these illnesses… for one post. And then I could not move past the sadness I was feeling. I was having a really hard time faking happiness when I wasn’t feeling that way, but that only made me more upset. I am a writer! I can write joyfully! Right? Not at that time. Read More
There are so many unpredictable things about chronic illnesses. You never know when you’re going to have a good day, or even a day where getting out of bed seems feasible.
Sometimes the idea of talking on the phone is overwhelming enough to induce a panic attack and other times you just ache to hear the ringtone.
There are days where the isolation is maddening but you are overwhelmingly exhausted and unable to socialize.
Good Morning, Friends!
I have updated my Spoonie Suggestions section so be sure to check it out!
If you’ve explored a bit of my site you would have come across the “What is a Spoonie?” post detailing what it is to refer to yourself as such.
I am a spoonie and as such I have found myself in some unusual situations with new ways of embarrassing myself or screwing up.